Going round and round.

Really think I'm going crazy. I don't even know what I'm doing same routine everyday. I'm doing what everyone else wants. And not what I want. I sleep at 4. Wake up in th afternoon. Watch tv. Meet kristy in th evening. And my body auto wakes me up at 3. Go to th toilet. Purge. After I feel totally empty again. I go to sleep. And I feel sick. Tired. Having only one meal a day. And a cup of water every hour. Someone save me from this nightmare.