Thursday, December 15, 2011

Going round and round.

Really think I'm going crazy. I don't even know what I'm doing same routine everyday. I'm doing what everyone else wants. And not what I want. I sleep at 4. Wake up in th afternoon. Watch tv. Meet kristy in th evening. And my body auto wakes me up at 3. Go to th toilet. Purge. After I feel totally empty again. I go to sleep. And I feel sick. Tired. Having only one meal a day. And a cup of water every hour. Someone save me from this nightmare.

Wednesday, December 14, 2011


I'm sick of all th trying, when no one appreciates. I'm sick of trying so hard to be accepted by society. Of turning myself into a monster just so I'll be accepted. I really don't know who I am anymore. I am sick of making others happy. And not myself. I look forward to th day where I won't have to purge anymore. Look forward to th day where i won't have th urge to cut every time I look at an sharp object. I look forward to th day. Where I can be truthfully. Happy. Where I can just be me.

Tuesday, December 13, 2011

Skyrise Love

So i'm back in blogger? Hopefully more active. Because Here is th only way i can rant it all out. It's like. All these dirty secrets i'm dying to tell someone, So that i can get help. But it"s okay. Blogger is fine with me. I just miss having someone to talk to. Someone to fight for me. Someone who wants me so badly. I miss that feeling. Now. All i have to do is wake up at 3. Empty myself. And back to sleep. Well that is all for today. No one reads thus shit anyways, So this little voice is telling me to go eat, and do th same thing. So. Goodbye.